Halfway there

photo credits goes to azhar

Creative Marketplace turned out to be a really good experience, well minus the part where we had to carry all our logistics from home to the national library and back home for three days. On the first day, I just couldn't wait for it to be over but really, I wished the exhibition was at least a week long. I got to meet interesting people, learn how to present myself and got some (unconfirmed) job opportunities. I'm still lost, uncertain of what I want people to see me as but I think I'm getting there. :) I think the best part of this exhibition is that it kinda helped with boosting my confidence, even though it's just that tiny weenie bit of it. I'm glad to know that there are people out there who genuinely appreciate my works, especially when they are not people from the design industry. I was shocked and loss for words when someone asked me if I'm selling my works lol. Really, really needed to hear those words. Thank you strangers :') 

The only photo that I took of my booth haha

Still vividly remember what Azhar said to me during the assessment on the first day. I don't know if he really means it or not, but I would wanna believe that he does. That motivated me one way or another so, thank you, probably-the-only-lecturer-who-is-still-not-my-friend-on-facebook.

Last lap: FYP/Graduation Show! GOGOGO

Fats

Blogging from my phone as Robin is dead, again. It's a long long story but in short, Robin needs a new logic board (again). I've honestly lost all hope in this MacBook Pro model as a lot of other owners of the same models are facing the same issue. But this is such a bad, BAD timing because of my ongoing FYP T_T. I just hope I can get back Robin asap and it can last till I graduate. Then, I can think about buying a new MBP.

Highlight of the post:

I'd never really care about my body weight or worry about my body shape etc. Who would've known that I would be so sad over things like that now HAHAH. Now, it all begins with a pair of pants. I've been hunting for a pair of tartan pants for quite some time. The ones that I found are either not to my liking, too expensive or they're sold out. When I finally bought one online, I was SO happy (didn't even bother checking the measurements and trusted the alphabet "M"). CNY is just around the corner so I thought, yay I could wear this on cny. Today, the pants arrived and....yeah. IT'S TOO SMALL FOR ME. DAMN THEM MODELS ARE SO PETITE, It's like size S when it says medium! Time to really make exercising a habit, and so the tartan pants hunt continues..I'm probably gonna have to sell the pants :(

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I've been really stressed over my final year project. I just wanna get it over and done with so I can graduate but I'm trying to change the mindset because it doesn't help to motivate myself in any way. Good thing is that we were selected to be one of the exhibitors in the Grad Show this year, that's enough to make me go forward I guess. I wouldn't want to get removed from the list and embarrass myself hahhaahha. Oooookay time to continue drawing animals~

Merry Christmas!

I'm not really feeling the Christmas spirit this year, partly because I'm really broke hahaha. I don't have anyone else to blame because I splurged on so many things this December. The pair of loafers is a Christmas gift to myself I guess hahahaha. Topshop was having a lot of sales last week, worthy purchase! Going to get Joseph's 21st birthday present and head over to the chalet now, hohoho!

Like a cloud

Always floating around

Travelling from town to town

Learning to settle down

inner self

current mood

Stumbled upon an article a few days ago, I can relate to it so well that it's scary.

10 Things To Stop Caring About If You Want To Be Happier

/ What others think

/ Past mistakes

/ Failure

/ What you don't have

/ "What ifs"

/ "I'll be happier when..." thoughts

/ Regrets

/ Rejection

/ Society's expectations

/ Being good enough

Checked 8 out of 10 things off the list.

I care too much about what other people think of me.
I'm always worrying about the past, the present & the future.
Things that bring me regrets keep coming back to haunt me and
I'm always thinking that what if I made a different decision back then?
And number 10, I think that I'm not good enough.

I also did a palm reading and numerology test yesterday
(people have been tweeting about this site for some weird reason),
the results were 90% accurate :O

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"You posses a pointed hand.
This is the hand of someone who appreciates the finer things in life.
You like to be surrounded with art and beauty, and you tend to avoid manual labor.
You are interested in psychic matters, and may even posses a heightened sense of perception.
Many people who poses this type of hand become involved in the cosmetic or hair styling industry."

Hmm I'm not too sure about the last part though.

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" The key to your personality is freedom.

You love travel, adventure, variety and meeting new people.

You posses the curiosity of a cat, and you long to experience all of life.

You love to be involved in several things at the same time,

as long as you are not tied down to any one area.

You like change, new things and new horizons.

You can make friends easily, and your personality is upbeat and often inspiring,

attracting people form all walks of life.

You are sensual and you love to taste all of life.

You find it difficult to commit to one relationship, but once you committed,

you can be faithful as an old dog. ( I LOL at this. Funny, but true.)

You yearn for freedom, and self-employment attracts you powerfully.
Your challenge is to settle into one area in order to cultivate your ability sufficiently
to earn a living and to attain success. Once you find the niche, the motivation and
inspiration you supply to others will bring you much in return.
You will find your friends and colleges supporting and promoting you in the road of success."

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The numerology test result was spot on!
So it seems that my challenge is to learn the true meaning of freedom ~

tgiw?

THESE THINGS ARE EVIL. My feet still hurt when I woke up this morning! I don't understand how can people walk in them, how can they bear the pain?! To all you girls out there, I SALUTE YOU. I am not cut out for dresses and heels man, not feminine enough hahhaahha. It's hard being a girl; I love and hate heels because they're so pretty but I can never bear to let my feet suffer to look glamourous. No more heels for me man, no more. 

The only decent photo I have in my phone

Last night was fun! I would've stayed longer if it weren't for my heels. :(

Can't believe I actually ran in those things l o l how on earth did I do that.

jolly good fellow

I'm not sure if it's a Libra thing, or it's just my personality. I can't seem to stay mad at someone/something for long, which is a good trait I guess? I was still pissed from the incident mentioned in the previous post, it lasted until Tuesday because shit continued to happen. I was so angry to the point where I was trying to hold back my tears in the studio, I didn't even want to talk to my tutor anymore l o l so I made Joseph go alone. After that night, I was done ranting, dwelling and sulking over the fact that we were being treated unfairly and things weren't going smoothly for us at the beginning of this journey. "Everything happens for a reason", so I'd rather see this as a challenge and to my surprise, I'm slowly liking this new client that our tutor suggested to us. :)

Things are getting better; I felt really good today because we managed to get our proposal done early! (Y) I think I deserve a reward hahahahha. I'm still waiting for the rest of my pay so that I can strike off two things in my to-buy list hehe.

Goofing around with photobooth ha ha ha thank you Apple for the free OS X Mavericks update!! Robin runs so much smoother now and it doesn't lag that often. I feel like I'm having a brand new mbp with my new battery, am taking good care of Robin now!

Anyway, my conversation with the guys for the past few months have been involving a lot of "gym", "muscles", "biceps", "strong man", "buff guy", "six packs", "abs", "2.4", "pull up", "NAPFA" and I thought it would stop after they've taken their NAPFA but nOpe. I've never been a sporty person so I would never ever hit the gym with them ahahahaha and I could never join in the convo when they talk about gym or NAPFA so I'd just listen, damn we need a new topic to talk about!