what went wrong

Have you ever felt that you suck so much that you should just give up on whatever you're doing?

The exhibition has been going on for a few days now, but honestly I just can't wait for the day to tear down my work. Looking at everyone's artifact, I can't help it but felt really shitty inside. I thought I'd be satisfied and feel that all the hard work, the amount of sawdust that I've inhaled, random cuts that I've gotten from I-don't-know-where, money that I spent would be worth it but nope. I actually feel embarrassed...because everyone else's work seem to be 10 times better than mine. I've lost the drive already...I'm really afraid that my passion would be gone too. I used to draw a lot, I couldn't live without my sketchbook and pen. What happened?

While waiting for Yusman and Mel to pick us up for supper after our duty just now, Kah and I talked about life.....(kinda) I don't really know what I want to do in the future. I'm not 100% sure if I wanna pursue degree in visual comm. Even if there's a full-time graphic designer job offer (In this case, I'm referring to my internship company 19blossom), I might not accept it because I need to make sure I enjoy what I do. If I'd given a choice, whether to get $2k per month for doing something that I'm not really passionate about or $1.5k per month to do something I love, I'll definitely choose the latter. I don't really see myself being a graphic designer in 10 years time..who knows I might end up opening a cafe? It's been my dream since day 1 anyway haha. Kah and I kinda have the same mindset..we're both interested in creating our own street label as well. But then again, these are just ideas in our heads. We still have FYP to worry about, damn.